My week from hell

I am either an extremely selfish person, or an extremely paranoid one. I somehow convinced myself that my boss was going to fire me this week. Now, don’t ask me how I convinced myself, but if you asked Freud, he might say that the paranoia I created for myself was because subconsciously, I knew I wasn’t doing my job as well as I could. But I don’t think that is it at all. I think I am, by nature, extremely selfish. Whenever someone is in a bad mood, I convince myself that I did something to make them that way. I always think people are talking about me, etc etc. There is no way I could possibly explain all the selfish things I do, but I am spoiled and selfish. And I think that all needs to change. I think I need to grow up, to be grown up and responsible and adult-like. I can’t be a two-year-old in my relationships anymore. For the well being of myself and those around me, I need to examine each relationship and come to the conclusion if they nurture my selfishness or my selflessness.