All this emotion

All this emotion is pouring out of me. I’m sure I could blame it on womanly things, and maybe that is the case. The only thing I know for sure is, I cried, I sobbed last night simply because my cat peed on my bed. *sigh*

Re-examining, I can’t quite understand my reaction. If I had gotten mad, I believe it would have been justified, but I didn’t. I cried. I cried until the mascara on my eyelashes had transplanted itself to my cheeks. Then, as I was lying like a rag doll on B’s bed, I asked if he was going to leave me anytime soon. *double sigh*

And now, today, I feel like crawling up inside my room and never coming out. I think I’m exhausted and emotional drained. B and I have been on this high for about two months now and maybe I’m finally coming down from it. Who knows? I’ll probably go home today and be in the best mood, B will say something to restore my faith in mankind and I’ll feel 100% better. I just feel drained of everything rite now. Our lives seemed perfect for one instance and then…………

Starting last week, my boss cut my hours back to 30 hours a week due to a lack of work which does not bode well for my finances. He also tells me that my fatty bonus won’t be coming until the middle of June, “hopefully”, which screeches my plans of fixing the brakes on my car to a halt. That probably means that by the middle of June, I will have no brakes and the rotors will be damaged, meaning my repair bill will be somewhere in the $1,000 range. Waiting for that bonus also means that money for school will be tight. I have to come up with $600 to register, which I have none of. My boss promised this bonus would be paid on May1 and then May 15 and now, “hopefully”, June 15. Do I just bite the bullet and tell him I need it now? Especially with no notice of the hourly cut back?

*sigh* what do I do?

I'm just overwhelmed