relax

It hit me like a bus. I am two weeks late, but that pink line keeps eluding me. And all at once today, my bloodwork comes back negative (but I'm healthy) and a dear friend tells me she is now pregnant. I am so riddled with jealousy and saddness that I can hardly move. And here I thought I was above that...

I was doing so well concentrating on other things, but we both want it so badly now.

When his aunt died in January, I thought maybe, just maybe, I would prove to be pregnant and prove the circle of life. His sister was.

Now, two weeks late and almost sure I am. B had a dream about it, but she is instead.

Just breathe...in and out...close your eyes and repeat after me...