Sugar Plum special

Today is the first day in over two weeks that I've felt okay. I haven't had a headache yet today, but the day is still young.

We didn't do much to celebrate our anniversary last night. But his gift came, and with it, a perma-smile. I made us dinner and then we cuddled and relaxed as much as we could.

He's taking me out to dinner this weekend, buying me something more, on top of what he already gave me as an anniversary gift. I assured him it wasn't nessesary, but he insists. Half of my present arrived on monday and I am eagerly awaiting the arrival of the other half; it should be any day now.

A co-worker of mine brought in pictures of her 36-year old boyfriend today; proudly showing them off...

We've been dating for over two years...
Yes, I think that we will get married and have babies...

She is 28, so I figure its only natural to think about those things at that age.

I just don't know how to feel when people ask if B and I are getting married any time soon. I have no problems telling them "no", but then they get this look of pity on their faces; I can only speculate as to why.

Would it be so bad if we waited until we were absolutely ready? Would it be so bad if I decided I'd like to NEVER be married, but always in love with him?

We've talked about buying a house, kids, living and growing old together, but that doesn't mean I have to want it right now, does it? I'm not ready for that. I'm not mature enough yet. Neither is he. But isn't that okay? Can't we wait until we are ready without the looks of pity from family friends?

I've never been so in love, so happy, everyday I am able to come home to him. Isn't that enough?

The rain keeps falling here, and I am finally able to enjoy it, without feeling depressed.

I'll be 23 in 20 days....