Wednesday, November 02, 2005

My life, the tree

I am wondering how I got here, how I reached this point in my life. And I often think about how many different versions of my life I've given up. Like a tree and its branches.

The Event:
I got offered a summer job at a Christian camp the summer after my senior year. The day I was supposed to report for duty I called and resigned. They called a day later: "we would love to have you work up here anytime." They hadn't even met me.

What would've happened if I had accepted the job:
I really think my romance with Aaron would have fizzled. It was too new, and too sexual to survive with me serving at a christian camp all summer.

The Event:
I left my christian university after the first semester.

What would've happened if I stayed and finished my four years there:
I would be a completely different person, studying psychology, but who knows who I would be or what events would've been absent from my life.

The list could go on. And i know it's not healthy to look back and say "what if?", but it is an interesting thought; imagining the person I might have been today if I had just climbed a different branch on the tree.

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