Letters from The Twin

Three letters from The Twin

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Letter One:

12-7-98

"Hey so yes, my writing is sloppy plus I really have nothing to write on. Son anyway, its Monday night bout 10:20pm. Well yea I said I’d write after the weekend cause I thought I’d have more to talk about but I don’t. We did nothing. So hey, you’re a pornostar, oops scuse, I meant super basketball star right? Haha. Well that’s prity darn cool. Oh yea, I got your package Friday. It is super cool. I listen to the singles all the time and they come just in time cause I had just got a CD player for my car. Woohoo. Now on the softer side, um, I think you and I will make better friends than [she] and I ever did, so you don’t ever worry about that. As for a relationship, I have no idea what is up with that. I really truly do not know what I want anymore and that is totally the honest truth. No, I don’t have a girl and I’m not even looking for one cause I’m coming back after all on the 10th. 1-10-99, that is. But I don’t know what I’m doing. I know you have such a wonderful spirit and I love being around you but I don’t want to ask you to wait around for me, well, because, I really am not sure what is goin on. You may be upset with what I have said but it doesn’t mean I don’t like you, it just means I don’t want you to wait around for nothing. You may be wondering what had brought this on and I can tell you that being alone alone, away from everyone you know, being by myself all the time makes, or lets you think. I think I’m really not sure what I want now. I’m going to quote you:

"I want to talk about anything and everything with you." Ooo. Now this is hard but anyway, her goes: I know that I do miss a physical relationship, but I would never ask you to even think about getting involved like that with me. Not that this means sex, but I think you know what I mean and when I say I’d never ask you to get involved like that with me, I would just never disrespect you like that because I know how you feel about that kind of stuff.

Well, you are probably really frustrated or upset with me now, but I guess that stuff qualifies as any and everything and its definitely not "chit chat", it’s really pretty deep. I’m really looking forward to seeing you in a couple of weeks and I hope you feel the same way. Aw, I’m scared to send this to you, but I’ll take my chances. For one, I don’t like letters because if they fall into the wrong hands, heck, I’m scared of it falling into your hands, um yea. It’s like 31 degrees at night and I’ve been freezing my butt off. Wow. You know, I’m really full of emotions I guess cause I’m so lonely. I want to talk more but I’m just scared, so see ya or hear from ya soon.

P.S. If you don’t wanna hear from me anymore I won’t understand so please call or write as quick as possible.

Love,"
The Twin

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Letter two:

12-9-98

"Well, well, well, bet you didn’t expect another one of these so soon now did ya? Well I got to thinking again so I decided to write someone so I chose you. I’m listening to your tape right now. I wanted to call but I didn’t want to spend someone else’s money. It’s 6 minutes to 10pm right now and I’m wide-awake cause, well, I said, I had nothing to do so I slept from about 2:30-6:00. I know what your thinking, "what a lazy boy." I guess that would be right, but what am I supposed to do? No one ever calls. Well, I shouldn’t say that cause there is always someone trying to solicit something over the phone to me. I’m so poor. I feel bad because I can’t buy my family Christmas gifts. Isn’t that sad? I always buy cool gifts for everyone. I’m sure they’ll understand. Ooo, the people in my class get me so mad! They never do anything. Then, when I’m working on a car (a car that no one wanted to work on, I might add, so I volunteered), they like to stand around and talk crap. Ooo. It makes me so angry. So anyway, this kid had to push his car into our shop cause it wouldn’t start and then at the end of the day someone came up and said to the owner, "you’re letting them work on your car? It’s going to get studentized." I was mad. I was all, "well it didn’t run when it came in and now it does, so what do you got to say about that?" And they just shut up. I was proud. I’m telling ya, it feels good to tell off people who deserve it. Hint hint hint. So anyways, that was Tuesday the 7th. Oh, and that same day some girl in my class was talking crap about my car saying how slow it was and that I couldn’t burn our at all. So as we left the school, I burned out so much and left so much smoke. She couldn’t breathe or see it was great. Anyway, about the only thing around here to do is clean my apartment and believe me, I do it quite often cause I’m always here doing nothing. One day I wish someone would knock on my door and wanna hang out but I guess it really doesn’t matter cause I’ll be coming home soon anyway. I graduate 1-8-98, oops 1-8-99 I mean and I can’t wait. Did I tell you they have a station out here that plays Christmas music 24hrs a day? It’s cool. I listen to it all the time. It helps me to sleep at night cause at night I have such a hard time sleeping. Sometimes at night when I’m half asleep at night, I think I’m in my old room and it feels so good. Once I thought I heard my father and I jumped up so fast and realized where I was. It was kinda sad. You know what I want? I beenie. I had two but a couple of girls stole them from me. I know I’m just talking a lot of nonsense, but I just wanted something to do and this, well is something to do so just bare with me please or just throw me away. I’ll never know the difference. So how’s the weather out there? I heard its been raining a lot. It’s been so cold here, I’m freezing in my bed at night cause I never turn the heater on cause I don’t want to run up the electric bill. What I need is a girl to cuddle with and keep me warm, yea, that would be really nice. I miss the touch of another, heck; I miss the company of another. I can’t wait to come home and get my life started. I bought these little cinnamon wax things and I thought they were candles, so I bought 4 of them, but nope, it was just wax, so I melted them. They still smell all right. They were only 84 cents a piece. You know what Christmas song I really like? Little Drummer Boy. It’s cool. Well I think I’ll let you go now. Thanks for putting up with me. Love you.

Love,
The Twin

Hope to hear from you soon."

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Letter three:

12-15-98

"Hey you, I called you today around 5:00 your time, but I guess you were at the mall or something and you weren’t going to be home till 10:00 cuase you had other stuff to do. I’ll be home in a week for vacation. Yipee! Oh yea, my [sister and her boyfriend] are back together so they both get to come to my graduation. I’m so excited! I can’t wait to graduate and get the heck out of this place, but it seems the closer it gets the slower it gets and I’m getting so impatient!

You know I guess I really don’t have anything much to say. I just wanted to talk to you and do something. Ooo ooo. When my family comes down, me, [my sister, her boyfriend, my brother and our friend] are going clubbing so I’m sure that’ll be tons of fun. Tomorrow they are going to do an inspection on my house so I’ve been doing a thorough look over. Well I guess I’ll leave you alone now. Merry Christmas.

Love,"
The Twin

(Punctuation and grammatical errors were corrected in the above letters and names were changed.)